We Really Don't Understand Each Other
qq invited many of the club’s elder members to have a dinner. I didn't know Kilo will attend. I thought qq knows what I was thinking. But beyond our expectations, ocell invited her. (my guess) When she told me about that at the place we waited each other, I was stunned. After a while of thinking, I decided not to appear. I feared of meeting Kilo and spoiled the happiness of their meeting.
I left and after I bought my dinner, Kentu called and told me that Kilo left too. Even so, I still didn't go to meet them. My mind was messed up. I thought Kilo didn't have to go. Her leaving appears that she really don't understand me thoroughly. Did she think her sacrifice could make me relaxed and going back?
But maybe I really don't understand her thoroughly either. She might think my action as a sacrifice, and I also messed up her mind. That's the reason she left. But what should I do? How could I treat everything just as fine and not happened?! How could I watch them talking, laughing and enjoy the dinner?!
Maybe many people think my reaction is very immature, but that's me and my belief. Yes, we don't understand each other. And the situation may last, forever.
皇帝殿岩稜
IV Is Difficult
Today we had a class about venipuncture and drawing blood. Sowhat was my partner, and we practiced on each other. Because we had practiced drawing on brachial vein in our third year, we decided to start on the vein of the back of the hand.
I tried first. I put on the gloves, tied the rubber tube, and sterilized the skin with the alcohol pad. All went well. But when I pushed the IV catheter into the skin, I couldn't find blood back through the catheter. I tried to change the direction of the needle, but it didn't work. Totally I tried two times and both were failed. I was so depressed. This technique is not as easy as I think. Sowhat tried two times on me and he failed either.
The next time, maybe I have to practice on the real patient. How can I not be nervous ?!
Clerk Course Starts
From now on, I formally become a clerk in VGHTPE. I have the staff card and the restaurant card, which means I can go to the staff restaurant for lunch and have 10% off in the Eslite Square.
In these days, in the classroom, I always fell asleep. Maybe it's because I had not got accustomed to the 8-hour-per-day classes. They made me so tired that yesterday I went to bed on 8 p.m. and got up on 6 a.m. this morning. I cannot image the future days. Will I get tired like a dog and lose my temper just like what I thought Kilo was two years ago?
Sigh… Some things need to be experienced before being realized.
07/09 UPDATE: I finally took the picture of my BB call. It is a little out-of-date to use a BB call in the hospital, because PHS may be a more convenient way to communicate. Well, according to this reason, it is worthier of taking a record of it, isn't it?
Restart Stamp Collection
When I was a child, my father tought me how to collect stamps. I liked it very much at that time, and had done it for a period. My collection books are all at home, and I have many stamps in my drawer now. I'd like to rearrange the things in my drawer and put these stamps in a right place. So I used the coupons of Kingstone Bookstore I received several years ago to buy a new stamp collection book. Hmm… It looks great, isn't it?
A Concert I Cannot Attend
This Saturday, there is a Chinese Music concert in Sing-Tian-Gong. Originally, I'd like to attend and I posted a message asking if anybody would like to go together. But something happened. Please forgive me not to tell what it exactly was. I think I can't attend this concert. What a pity. But I think there will be another chance to watch a free concert. It's ok.
Demeanor vs. Contact
During the period of my separation with Kilo, I read many articles about love. There is a good sentence that affact me very much. It says,
"Between a separated couple, the only thing to maintain is DEMEANOR, not CONTACT."
Because the other side knows you very much, maybe knows the most in the world. What you like, the most private of you, etc. You can not become the original status forever. So, maintain only the demeanor, no contact.