跟上次一樣, 早上八點大家都準時到了實驗外科集合, 由於這次是主刀, 所以也就不急著刷手換衣服, 先看看老潘那裡東西領的怎樣, 再去看看豬抓的如何, 這時董欣當然是努力的在準備著麻醉用的儀器, 不過豬似乎沒有想像中的好抓, 到動物室時, 色仔, 周樹榮和手裡拿著彎掉的針頭的玟秀三個人正目不轉睛的盯著小豬看, 只要一接近小豬他就會開始掙扎, 不過我還是決定像老師一樣, 把牠的後腳抓起來, 然後猛力的一插, 把 ketamine 打進去, 不過今天小豬跟上個禮拜真是判若兩人啊! 被抓住了還能這麼猛力掙扎, 幾乎沒有下針的空閒, 不過幸好在我雙手正快無力時, 也把針打完了, 而我去洗手的時候也順便把手給刷了.
Diary
A Crisis Or A Turning Point
Tonight, the problem of the anonymous boards disturbed my original plan. I have to deal properly with it before I can go to bed, although I’d like to write a diary about tonight’s concert originally. But the problem is really important for me, or even for Fancy.
It took me a lot of time to explain, to talk to the others, but I got an idea while I was taking a shower. It now seems a crisis for me, and therefore I have to spend a lot of time making definitely rules, looking for some supports in law, etc. But it could be a turning point for me, isn’t it? Maybe after I read something about the law, I’ll be interested in it. Maybe I’ll be an expert in law. Maybe I’ll get a degree of law. Haha… it’s good, isn’t it?! XD
The Advantage Of Marginalization
Today, I heard that PCMan complained about his unluckiness that he had no chance to be the main operator in the experimental surgery course. He said his partners all are very zealous in being the main operator, and finally they decided by drawing lots. That’s why he said he’s unlucky.
In my group, we have no such problem. The others declined politely with each other. It took us much time to decide everyone’s job. Because I don’t exclude the possibility to be a surgeon, I voluntarily want to do the spleenectomy operation. The rest two times, I’ll be the scrubbing nurse and the assistant. That means I’ll need to scrub through all the experimental surgery courses. I’m LUCKIER than PCMan, ain’t I?
Every time we need to separate into groups, I feel embarrassed. There’s no one who actively invite me to his group. To some degree, I think I’m marginalized from the class. Or it can be said that I purposely make myself out from them. But because of them, I get the chance to practice in the experimental surgery. Does it mean that I profit from a misfortune?
My roommate did the cecectomy operation today. He told me he’s nearly exhausted after four-hour operation, standing there. Oh, I’m a little nervous. Will I faint in the operation because of my getting poorer and poorer physical strength? I HOPE NOT!
Let The Computer Off
Since yesterday, I tried to let my computer off when I was studying. The idea is from my senior-high-school life in the dormitory. At that time, especially in the third year, I could study all the evening without computer. And it really made me more concentrated on the textbooks. I just wanna get the feeling back. With my computer’s power on, I always lose my patience with the co-notes. I always spent a lot of time doing nonsense on the internet. I want to give up the bad habit.
After the two-day trying, I found it very effective. I just turned my computer on twice one day, one before lunch, and the other before the bedtime. What did I do between the period I finished a co-note and began another? I tried to read something else. Maybe after accumulation of these pieces of free time, I can read a lot. Hmm… it seems a good idea for me, at least, up till now. :p
從昨天開始,唸書的時候我就把電腦關了。之所以會這麼做是因為以前高中住宿的經驗,尤其是高三的時候,每天都可以念一整晚的書,也沒有電腦可以打,那時我都還蠻專心的。我只是想要找回那種感覺。現在的我,要是電腦是開著的,共筆念沒兩下就開始分心,然後在網路上亂逛,做一些沒意義的事,真想把這個壞習慣改掉。
經過這兩天的試驗,感覺還蠻有效的。我一天只開了兩次電腦,一次是午餐前,另一次是睡覺前。那我念完一本共筆正在休息時都在做什麼呢?就看一些課外書,說不定這樣累積下來也是可以看不少書的。嗯…感覺還挺不錯的,至少到目前為止啦啦啦~~~ :p
I’m Not Smart Enough
The score of my dermatology exam last week unveiled yesterday, my score is higher than I thought after the exam originally. According to what my roommate said, it is approximately the mean value. My roommate asked me whether I’d like to know about the others’ scores, but I said no. I thouth I’ll feel depressed after knowing that the others performed better than I.
I had the lunch today with Kentu and Cloudyday. Cloudyday asked me about my score of dermatology and how many times I read through the co-notes. I replied him the truth. But he said that he studied less and got higher score than me. Hmmm… I didn’t get angry at him, and I thought he must not do it deliberately.
I still feel a little depressed. I know my intelligence is not good as others, and I really did harder in the dermatology exam this time. But the result still didn’t reach what I expected. All I can do is to study more harder, can’t I?
Recently
Last Friday, I finished the anesthesiology exam. It finally came the relaxed time. In addition to sleeping more than 12 hours a day, I also spent a lot of time with my computer.
During these days, I set a online service of browsing the source codes in the subversion repository with a software called Trac. In order to make it work properly, I have to add mod_python into the Apache. And when I tried to browse an article in the BBS repository, I encountered the problem of wrong charset encoding. Even I tried to ask in2 on IRC about the setting of Trac, although at last I solved it on my own. The problem is, that article uses a Chinese character encoded in Big5, which UTF-8 doesn’t have, so the converting process failed.