這場音樂會似乎從很早之前就開始計畫了, 不過其實因為自己最近很忙, 葆如也忙, 其實要去的時候還蠻心不甘情不願的. 大家約好在石牌捷運站一起過去, 加上自行前往的, 大概去了十個人左右吧!
近了國家音樂廳, 照慣例的還是先去買本節目單回來收藏, 不過這次的節目單居然要 $100, 好貴啊啊啊~~~ 不過看起來比較大本, 還算有質感吧! 只好把錢掏出來了.
The Advantage Of Marginalization
Today, I heard that PCMan complained about his unluckiness that he had no chance to be the main operator in the experimental surgery course. He said his partners all are very zealous in being the main operator, and finally they decided by drawing lots. That’s why he said he’s unlucky.
In my group, we have no such problem. The others declined politely with each other. It took us much time to decide everyone’s job. Because I don’t exclude the possibility to be a surgeon, I voluntarily want to do the spleenectomy operation. The rest two times, I’ll be the scrubbing nurse and the assistant. That means I’ll need to scrub through all the experimental surgery courses. I’m LUCKIER than PCMan, ain’t I?
Every time we need to separate into groups, I feel embarrassed. There’s no one who actively invite me to his group. To some degree, I think I’m marginalized from the class. Or it can be said that I purposely make myself out from them. But because of them, I get the chance to practice in the experimental surgery. Does it mean that I profit from a misfortune?
My roommate did the cecectomy operation today. He told me he’s nearly exhausted after four-hour operation, standing there. Oh, I’m a little nervous. Will I faint in the operation because of my getting poorer and poorer physical strength? I HOPE NOT!
Let The Computer Off
Since yesterday, I tried to let my computer off when I was studying. The idea is from my senior-high-school life in the dormitory. At that time, especially in the third year, I could study all the evening without computer. And it really made me more concentrated on the textbooks. I just wanna get the feeling back. With my computer’s power on, I always lose my patience with the co-notes. I always spent a lot of time doing nonsense on the internet. I want to give up the bad habit.
After the two-day trying, I found it very effective. I just turned my computer on twice one day, one before lunch, and the other before the bedtime. What did I do between the period I finished a co-note and began another? I tried to read something else. Maybe after accumulation of these pieces of free time, I can read a lot. Hmm… it seems a good idea for me, at least, up till now. :p
從昨天開始，唸書的時候我就把電腦關了。之所以會這麼做是因為以前高中住宿的經驗，尤其是高三的時候，每天都可以念一整晚的書，也沒有電腦可以打，那時我都還蠻專心的。我只是想要找回那種感覺。現在的我，要是電腦是開著的，共筆念沒兩下就開始分心，然後在網路上亂逛，做一些沒意義的事，真想把這個壞習慣改掉。
經過這兩天的試驗，感覺還蠻有效的。我一天只開了兩次電腦，一次是午餐前，另一次是睡覺前。那我念完一本共筆正在休息時都在做什麼呢？就看一些課外書，說不定這樣累積下來也是可以看不少書的。嗯…感覺還挺不錯的，至少到目前為止啦啦啦~~~ :p
Tag: Diary
I’m Not Smart Enough
The score of my dermatology exam last week unveiled yesterday, my score is higher than I thought after the exam originally. According to what my roommate said, it is approximately the mean value. My roommate asked me whether I’d like to know about the others’ scores, but I said no. I thouth I’ll feel depressed after knowing that the others performed better than I.
I had the lunch today with Kentu and Cloudyday. Cloudyday asked me about my score of dermatology and how many times I read through the co-notes. I replied him the truth. But he said that he studied less and got higher score than me. Hmmm… I didn’t get angry at him, and I thought he must not do it deliberately.
I still feel a little depressed. I know my intelligence is not good as others, and I really did harder in the dermatology exam this time. But the result still didn’t reach what I expected. All I can do is to study more harder, can’t I?
Ignorance Of Self-examination
It says that if someone offen brings you something with his goodwill, but finally receives insolent feedback, no “Thanks”, even be ignored with your nose turning up. How can he endure it? At last, I don’t know whether it is or not. You feel losing your face and then get angry at his “speaking ill behind somebody.” How can I say any more about this!?
話說如果有人常常好心幫你拿東西，結果卻受到不禮貌的對待，謝字不說就罷，連正眼也不瞧上一瞧，令人情何以堪？結果不知是不是「見笑轉生氣」，還反咬人一口「背地說閒話」，還有什麼好說的呢？
Tag: Criticism
Recently
Last Friday, I finished the anesthesiology exam. It finally came the relaxed time. In addition to sleeping more than 12 hours a day, I also spent a lot of time with my computer.
During these days, I set a online service of browsing the source codes in the subversion repository with a software called Trac. In order to make it work properly, I have to add mod_python into the Apache. And when I tried to browse an article in the BBS repository, I encountered the problem of wrong charset encoding. Even I tried to ask in2 on IRC about the setting of Trac, although at last I solved it on my own. The problem is, that article uses a Chinese character encoded in Big5, which UTF-8 doesn’t have, so the converting process failed.
Podcast – Horse Racing
One day after the Erhu practicing in the October, I tried to record my solo of playing Erhu. The first song I chose is Horse Racing by Hai-Huai Huang. This is not a difficult song to play, and I learned when I was in the second year of junior high school. (Does it mean that I don’t get any improved?!) The rhythm is a little bit fast, and the song describes a horse racing game. There are some special skills to imitate a horse, like the hoof sounds and the neighs. I didn’t do very well. The most important is, I realized again that my performance is still not good enough, and by recording, it’ll show you where the worst is. But after I stepped out, trying and trying, practicing and practicing, I think I’ll get better and better in the future.
在十月某一次二胡組練後，我錄了第一首二胡獨奏──賽馬 (黃海懷 曲)。 這首曲子並不難，我第一次學會的時候才國中二年級，(表示我沒進步嗎?!)，它的節奏有點快，而整首曲子主要在描述賽馬的過程。不過裡面有用到一些特殊技巧，例如馬蹄聲和馬鳴聲等等。不過我一直覺得自己學得不很好。 不過最重要的是，我再一次體認到其實自己拉得不怎樣，從錄音當中可以聽出許多平常聽不到的瑕疵。不過沒關係，跨出了這一步後，藉由不斷的錄音和練習，我相信自己以後一定會更進步。
Podcast:
First Podcast – Super Mario Brothers
Because of my mid-semester exams, the work is delayed. This is my first podcast. (About what is a podcast? You can see the explaination on the Wikipedia.) One day after the orchestra practice in October, Kentu and I recorded this Super Mario Brothers theme. He played the Sheng, and I played the cello. Although we performed this for many times, we still had many tries. We recorded this in the Medium Practicing Room, so there are a lot of noise in the background. Hope you won’t be disturbed.
因為期中考的緣故，所以拖到現在。這是我第一次嘗試做podcast。(關於什麼是podcast，你可以看wikipedia上的解釋。) 十月的某一次團練後，我和子鈞錄了這首瑪莉兄弟，他吹笙，我拉大提琴。雖然以前我們已經表演過不少次，不過還是錄了很多次才錄好。因為我們是在中練裡錄的關係，所以背景裡有很多雜音，希望大家沒有被干擾。
Podcast:
Super Mario Theme – Sheng and Cello – by Wei and Tsai
Tags: Podcast, Super Mario, 笙, Cello
Medical Ethics Course Ended
Just now, we finished the last class of medical ethics, although we still have a big homework to do. In the class, we discussed the future of the course. Many of my classmates feedback their suggestions. One of them, PCMan, talked to the teacher after the class, and I happened to hear their discussion.
PCMan said that he thinks it is not necessary to have such a class called Medical Ethics. Our thinking processes had been fixed since we are young. It’s too late to change it. And, he argued that why only the medical sphere has to discuss the Ethics. Why don’t the others have to? At that time, I was surfing the internet with my laptop, but when I heard what he said, I said that I don’t agree with him.
Although the personality of a person is almostly fixed when he is in his third decade, he still has chances to change it. PCMan is too pessimistic that he thinks “if we can’t change it, we don’t need it.” I do really not think so. When I discussed with my classmates about medical ethical problems, especially in the PBL course, I had changed several of my viewpoints. I received many thoughts from different point of view. Why didn’t he? The members of his team were too stingy to share their thoughts? I don’t think so. Maybe he is too stubborn to receive others’ thoughts. He frequently thinks that he did things in the best way. That’s my experience in working with him. The second, although only the medical sphere is asked for the ethic, it’s really not fair, does that mean we have the rights to escape from the upcoming problems? We can ask the others for morals, but before it, we can ask ourselves first.
Maybe it seemed that I didn’t get as much as I previously thought from the ethics lectures, but the above is what I has learned after the last medical ethics class.
雖然我們還有作業要做，不過就在剛才我們結束了最後一堂的醫學倫理。課堂上老師與我們討論這門課未來的走向，許多人也提出了一些意見，其中PCMan在下課後還特別留下來跟老師私下討論，剛好被我聽到了。
PCMan的意思是他覺得我們的觀念早就已經固定了，實在沒有必要再上這樣的課，來不及了，另外他也覺得為什麼只有醫界被要求要有倫理道德，難道其他人都不需要嗎？那時我正好在隨便看一些文章，不過聽到他的說法，我提出了我不同意他的看法。
我認為雖然我們的個性有大部分是早就固定了，但是並不會因此沒辦法再改變。我覺得PCMan太悲觀了，他認為沒辦法改變的事就不用去做，不過我覺得這麼想很奇怪。尤其在PBL的時候，我常常聽到許多同學對同一件事有不同的看法，我的想法也有點改變，為什麼他會認為完全沒改變呢？難道是他們同組的都沒有提出什麼不同的想法嗎？這應該不太可能，我想應該是他個性太固執了，甚至會認為他的作法都是最好的，他根本沒辦法接受其他人的意見，這是我曾經跟他共事的經驗。第二點，雖然目前只有醫界被要求倫理道德，這有點不公平，但這意味著我們能夠去逃避這個課題嗎？我們可以要求其他人也要有倫理道德，但我們是不是應該以身作則？
在大堂課裡我可能沒有學到像我原先想的那麼多，不過以上是我在上完最後一堂醫學倫理後的一點小感想。
Tags: Medical Education, Medical Ethics, Ethics