To cure sometimes, to relieve often, to comfort always.
這是剛剛在一個疑似正心學弟的blog裡回的comment:
我想回覆你在BBS與人的討論:
奇怪,我哪裡說我看不夠了 ?
何必一定要將你的想法加到別人身上呢?
一個人如果沒有想做的事,活著還有什麼意義阿?
還是你覺得把時間花在唸書工作賺錢才是有意義的?
你憑什麼覺得他這樣做沒有用呢?
你憑什麼知道10年後誰當上了立委,或高官不會去處理這件事呢?
你憑什麼說別人沒救了?
網路越發達,為什麼容忍別人言論的能力反而越來越低了?
一個bbs站上萬篇的文章,灌水,聊天,打屁,您都可以忍受了
為什麼不能忍受一個受到慘痛打擊人發表的言論?
您的硬碟真的裝不下這一篇文章?
您每天瀏覽的文字,聽到的話,有用的沒有用,都比這一篇文章來的意議?
從你上述的言論, 你也無法容忍別人的意見, 你也把自己的想法加到別人身上. 你對事情有雙重標準, 你覺得張爸很可憐, 你覺得社會沒有同情心, 但事情的經過你完全了解嘛? 社會的同情心是可以被濫用的嘛? 如果你真的同情他, 建議你幫助張家採用司法途徑來解決這件事.
BBS的討論版有其專門的用途, 當發表的文章不符合該版討論的內容, 即可稱之為濫用.
另外問個問題, 你是否能接受廣告信(spam)? 我覺得發廣告信的人也蠻可憐的耶! 如果你願意騰出你的硬碟空間來裝小小的”廣告信們”, 而且公開言論來責罵這些擋廣告信的人, 那你當我這篇在放屁好了.
Beginning with Hematology, and then Surgery Introduction, Pharmacology, and finally ended on Infection exams, the 4th grade of my medical education is over. (Although there is GOSCE, Group Objective Structure Clinical Examination, on Saturday waiting for me. But it just like a Role-Playing Game. So, forget it. :p)
After the series of exams, I must be tired out. This afternoon I slept for about 3 hours. (Therefore, I can’t get asleep now. =.=) I gradually can imagine the life of my 5th grade, a lot of exams within 2 months.
But I got hesitated of my life after the final exams. Before that, all I had to do all the day is to read and read, study and study. Now, I even don’t know what I should do. I’d like to write something, but I can’t start. There is no words in my mind. I’d like to modify my programs or my web sites, but I have no idea. Is this a symptom of “Exam Syndrome?”
O.K., maybe the symptom will remit after GOSCE finishes.
今天下午, 台灣名模林志玲小姐到陽明大學生活廣場來拍攝廣告, 一開始好像是有人在神農坡的 complain 板上面 po 文章吧~ 結果我們班上很多同學就衝下去了, 照了不少照片回來. (然後今天莫名奇妙圓夢相簿的流量應該會大增吧… @_@) 詳情請見 葉芭樂相簿, 屎飛相簿, cos相簿 (應該是吧 @_@ 不過這本是放在無名..)
剛剛瀏覽了一下, 發現照片裡林志玲都蠻上鏡頭的, 面對這麼多台相機鏡頭, 還有配合廣告的動作, 沒看到哪一張覺得有點糟的. (還是不佳的都被刪掉了??) (最佳不上像範例可以看這篇的朱茵照, 昨天看到實在是超 XD 的…) 不過這也顯示當一個知名人物真的很辛苦, 到處都有人在盯著你瞧, 上廁所也有人跟著跑, 如果被拍到糟糕的畫面, 還會被公開大肆宣揚, (例如上述朱茵… :p).
看到大家搶著跟她拍照, 讓我想起以前小時候曾經參加百戰百勝節目的錄影, 那時的胡瓜真是紅透半邊天啊~ 所以爸媽也叫我和弟弟去跟他合照, (小時候的我看起來還蠻好笑的… XD) 不過現在看來, 那張照片的價值已隨著年紀逐漸的衰退了. 現在大家也搶著跟林志玲合照, 這些照片的痕跡是不是最後也會慢慢的隨著時間衰退?
不過隨著今天這起林志玲事件, 倒是帶給悲情期末考一些不一樣的心情, 才是最重要的吧!
Last week, lovepig posted a message about NTU Chinese Orch. Concert Tour 2005. They asked for people to participate. I think it is a rare chance to play good Chinese music with a more complete Chinese Orch., so I emailed to the person in charge for my participation.
There will be four concerts totally. The first is in Taipei Zhong-Shan Hall on July 10. The second is in the concert hall of National Taichung Institute of Technology on July 12. The third is in the concert hall of Tainan Social Education Center on July 14. And the last is in Kaohsiung Music Center on July 15.
We will play 7 works, including The Memory of Childhood, The Dance In The Summer, Ar-Wa-Shan – the first movement of Folk Music of West Yun-Nan, Chinese Flute Concerto of Lan-Hua-Hua, Percussion Instruments Concerto of Thinking In Kuan Mountain, Three Works of North Shan-Hsi, and Going Into The Street.
In my last summer vacation, I have a lot of plans about music, especially Chinese Music. I hope it will be a good experience and I can make many friends while joining these activities.
On June 14, I received a email from the faculty office about their recently-bought system for student’s learning progress, and I tried it immediately. There was no amazing function, but I was a little bored that why the decision-making people always buy something not very useful (and sometimes fucking IE-only) for the students, and they always cost a lot!!
After I posted the news in my personal board, my classmate commented that the system shows our past personal grades and the order in the class. I connected to the system again and found my grade report. It seemed that I should not see that before the final exam. >_< It was a little bas news for me that my grades are not good as I think.
Yesterday, my roommate found his grades report and was a little sad about that. He said he studied as hard as he could in the past, but he didn’t get the appropriate repay. For me, he did well enough. There are too many talented people in our faculty, and they also study hard. Maybe we haven’t been acustomed to falling in grades, because we are always in the top population in the past. This is the normal environment in the faculty of medicine.
Because I were not him, I could not know what reason he is so sad for. Maybe there are differences between the goals we set for ourself. What I can do is to study harder and harder in the future. The most important is what I have really learned, not what grade I get.
Sky Yen (嚴婉禎) is my younger sister of the 1st grade in my school family. She suicided via burning carbon in her aunt’s home in the evening of June 15. Here are the news: I, II. (I couldn’t find any English version.)
I accidentally heard this news in my way to buy my lunch. I was so shocked when I recognize the person in the news as her. I almost can’t believe that she actually went this way, leaving so many people caring for her. Although I’m not so familiar with her, when I heard the news, I couldn’t control myself feeling so sad.
My elder sister, Hana Pan, called me last night, she sounded not really well. The other members, such as Wen-Shuen Lan and Yu-Ru Chang, also felt sad and posted something in their personal BBS boards. Because recently we all are in the final exam period, I can’t find a more continuous time to record my feeling, and just post it here to express my little missing to her.
Hope she lives happily in the heaven, and all the people I care have courage to face problems.
2005.06.21 Updated: Her Dad wants to duplicate her DNA. Whether he will succeed or not, I think there won’t be another Sky Yen on the earth forever. A person is composed of body and spirit. Even the body can be copied, the spirit won’t. Hope her family go out of the sorrow as quickly as possible.
2005.11.10 UPDATE: The Photo was taken just about 2 weeks before she suicided. All the memory may be here forever.
