Am I Conditioned?

I think I may be conditioned. Every time I turned on the computer, I always checked the user list of Skype to see if someone was there. But is it the time this should happen? I don't know. I don't know exactly what I'm thinking and what the truth in my mind.

It may be a good thing, but on the other hand, it may get me into another vicious cycle that I know I should avoid. Hmm… What a contradiction!